Where do we go from here?

You take the time to stop and stare, yet wander.


I've been collecting my mind in its parts to get it together enough for these thoughts to work themselves out. Where do I go from here? I'm in a place now that is so powerful. This place of feeling as though I can stand on my own two legs and look out, see the path, forever walk it. But there's a slight gap in the cement right before the path. Can I take the leap? Should I assume that what I'm thinking will work out and how it will work out and where it will take me is in anyway connected to reality, that I won't fall victim to personal delusions about who I am and where I'm going and how to get there. Because every day I wake up and I wonder where I am and how I got here.

Been contemplating self-realiazation books, following Kerouac and Zen Buddhism. I'm so painfully searching for peace. So painfully looking to settle into something. But what that is is inherently without ease.

Goal- to start a self sustainable school in a place of need, bringing arts, earth and health together in one place -- all that which makes being human so wonderful. Somehow bring all of my passions together.

What should I do now? I've published my art. Perhaps I now publish my craft- an 100% vegetarian cook book. That's the next step. Landmark by landmark.

Keep an eye out.